written: May 17th
Photo of the day:
Rose buds. I wanted to get photos of the Alley Neighbor’s orange
lilies that have FINALLY begun to bloom. But I dunno. I felt a little
awkward sneaking over there while they are home to photograph their
flowers and race back across the little alley way. I’ll just wait until
they aren’t home. ::laughs::
Whew. Aggression levels are running so fucking high right now. I’m
bouncing between bouts of aggression and depression. ::sighs:: Yeah,
lemme tell you how much FUN that has been…..NOT!!
The walks with Josey…I rather look forward to them to be honest. But
the weather is really beginning to heat up. And the humidity was so
high today – we got a quick rain shower this morning around 4 am. But I
like walking around my little neighborhood. It’s nice that the only
thing I really have to worry about in my little neighborhood is just a
few loose dogs from time to time. But no thugs. No pants-less hobos
high on whippets and drunk off Steel Reserve. No drug-dealers turned
murders. None of the crazy ass shit that occurred at my old apartment
complex. So yeah, while I miss my coyotes and hawks, rabbits and
raccoons, I don’t miss the human element from that area. It just was no
longer safe for me to be there.
On another topic, I got the journal again from the Pen Pal group.
::sighs:: I don’t want to work in it. I don’t want to write in it. I
just want to mail it back to Pen Pal David and bow out of the entire
thing from now on. But then again, maybe this could jump start my
creativity. Because, holy shit, that needs to be stuck by lightning.
At this point, I think that is the only way to jolt it back to life.
I need to clear out my art territory and art table. I can’t create
anything if the table is layer upon layer of utter chaos. I mean, I
NEED a bit of chaos, because that’s just what I am….that’s how I’m
wired. I’m not meant for domestication. But when it’s all chaos?
Nothing gets created. I need to clear all of that shit out and make
room for some creativity.
Holy hell, is this school year EVER going to end? I’m so DONE with
my students and my staff and they aren’t even terrible! ::laughs:: I’m
just so fucking tired and am ready for a break. A change of pace. I
can’t wait to go work with Jennifer, Sandy, Ronni, and Nate again in the
Tech Department. I just hope they don’t have me working with Tommy
(he’s the tech on my campus – and is creepy as FUCK. Even my students
have commented on how much he appears to like me and inquire if he knows
I’m married – yeah, it’s THAT bad). I’m sure if I talk to Sandy,
she’ll keep him somewhere else. ::chuckles:: I’m just happy to go see
those ladies and Nate again. Fuck, I’m just ready for a job that
requires a LOT less socializing. ::laughs::