Sunday Funday

written: April 14

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Part of the new-to-me desk that Elise was kind enough to deliver to us today. ::smiles:: I’m so excited to get it all put together and to start witching it up.

Other than that, I ran around doing a handful of errands I just hadn’t gotten to this week. I mailed out a fabulous gift box to Annette. And then I realized it will be her birthday this coming weekend. Dang, I wish I had noticed that earlier. I would have gotten her a birthday card. Oh well. I think she will be quite pleased with all the little gifties in the box, so that’s all that matters. It’s just a small box compared to the amazing boxes she sends me throughout the year. I’m just glad everything came together for this box. Kept a lovely sea/ocean theme – as that is her most favorite place.

I didn’t do ANY work on my paper today. All I have left is the Government Legislation – which is all about the Patriot Act, the Freedom Act, and all that jazz. Stuff I friggin’ HATE and find so incredibly non-exciting. So yeah, it’s like pulling teeth to get this part written. Since it’s due tomorrow night, I figure I will HAVE to write it at that point. ::chuckles:: So I’m giving myself today off. I got two parts written yesterday, so I’m doing well. And I’ve found all the resources I need for the final section. It’s just a matter of applying ass to chair and writing it.

I got the final part for the Red Fast Luck Oil ordered – the base oil. I wanted Jojoba oil and was hoping I could find it locally. No such luck and my ritual with Hazel Nut is swiftly approaching. So I ended up ordering it. I just hope it gets here in time. I’m more than a little anxious that I’ve waited too long and it won’t arrive by Friday. Fingers crossed that I’m worried all for nothing! ::chuckles::

Oh and a totally AWESOME thing that happened today – I was sitting outside with the Hubs and the Puppers and a hummingbird came into the yard and hovered for a while, checking me out. She even flew lower until she was about eye level (though, a good 7 feet away from me), cocked her head at me, and then flew off. Soooooooooo cool! And then a dragonfly just had the grandest hour buzzing around our yard. So yeah, I’ll take both of those totems as good signs. ::smiles::

I really do need to get a hummingbird feeder set up. I keep talking about doing it and wishing…I just need to do it. Same with a birdfeeder AND a bat house. One of these days….

Storms

written: April 13

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Rosebuds in the rain.

Fabulous, fabulous storms all day. We even had a moment of hail. I seriously loved it all. All the thunder and lightning and the torrential downpour. Then moments of quiet mist. Just awesome.

I got the bulk of the Privacy, Censorship, and Government Legislation in relation to Public Libraries paper written today. And yes, it is just as exciting as the title sounds. Which is to say….a total friggin’ yawnfest. It’s so boring that I played around doing the math to see how low of a score I could get on this paper and still have a B for the class. ::laughs:: Still going to do the work, but it’s nice to know that as long as I get at least 10 points (out of 15) on the paper I’ll still have a mid-B.

And the big news – I found a new-to-me desk that is almost perfect for what I want in an altar. I found it on Facebook Marketplace. I offered the woman selling it a bit extra if she could deliver it. So I’m getting it tomorrow! I’m so excited. So tomorrow, I will need to clean out the old altar area and move the old altar into my closet so I can set up the new desk/altar in the same spot. Hopefully I won’t have to also pack up the “art desk” just yet. I’m not ready to tackle that beast of a project. ::chuckles::

So now that I have the central piece, I can begin coming up with decoration ideas. I already know where the “homes” for Sekhmet, the Harpies, and possibly Circe will be. And with it being a good sized desk, it should make it more conductive to working in my Witch’s Journal during ritual. There’s even a spot that might be perfect to keep my Witch’s Journal. I’m seriously excited about all the possibilities this opens up.

Oooh, I found some fairy lights that look like amethyst pieces. It would be so cool for my sacred space. Honestly, I may buy two sets – one for the altar area and one for my bed area. ::smiles:: Plus I’m thinking of making a beaded curtain thing for part of the desk. Kind of hard to describe without a photo of the desk. Honestly, I plan to print out a photo of the desk and draw the various decorating ideas on the photo. That way I have something to work on each month without forgetting what it is that I wanted to do! ::laughs:: My only complaint is that the desk is white. Would have been really nice if it had been a black or a dark brown. I mean, I could paint it…but that would take weeks to get every piece painted twice and to apply a topcoat to ensure longevity of the paint. And that’s only if we have weeks of GOOD weather. Which right now is storm season, so I don’t see that happening. ::chuckles:: Oh well. I can continue using the altar cloths I have. No biggie.

Combative

written: April 12

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A cute little squishy octopus one of my students left behind at work today. She’s keeping a watchful eye on my Mocha Frappuccino.

I am feeling extra combative today. I’m not sure why exactly. Just am. And my higher-ups ain’t helping. ::chuckles::

Sam (one of the Zone Leaders, like Esmeralda) emailed the campus leaders today to remind us that we are “required” to do a community service project this spring. First all, no. Just no. I’m so burnt out and stretched so damn thin, that I’m telling you right fucking now, that ain’t happening.

And then the Superintendent emailed the district about the anonymous survey’s we do a while back to gauge our “satisfaction” with the school district. Apparently, when he said he wanted honest feedback what he really meant is “honest along long as it’s positive”. ::rolls her eyes:: If he didn’t want to hear about the negative aspects of our district and our leadership, what was the fucking point of doing the damn survey? He just wanted people to continue to blow smoke up his ass apparently. I seriously wanted to email him about it. But I’ve done very well refraining from doing that. Yet. ::chuckles:: Needless to say, Jess and I grumbled about it quite a bit for a while at work. And I continued to grumble about it when my husband got home as well. Just gotta get it all out of my system so I don’t email the superintendent about it. ::chuckles:: Lord grant me strength!

We are supposed to get some serious storms tomorrow. I hope so. I need some good storm time to just clear all this aggression out of my system. I wish we had a covered porch, so I could sit outside and really enjoy the storm without getting soaked to the bone in the process. That is a must on the next house we get.

4,745

written: April 11

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I came home to a lovely wolf card and two Starbucks cards to add to my collection from a dear journaling buddy, John. So now I have a Boston card to add to my other city cards. ::smiles:: I now have Starbucks cards from:
Boston
Washington state
Texas
Dallas (with the Ferris wheel)
Dallas (with the skyline)
NYC
Los Angeles

You know you have been insanely busy and running around like a chicken with its head cut off when you don’t even realize until 10 pm that today was your 13th anniversary of being self-injurious behavior free. Yep, for the past four thousand, seven hundred forty-five days, I have not engaged in any form of what is now called “Non-Suicidal Self Injury”. Which I have to admit, that I do like the new terminology as it does stress that this behavior is NOT suicidal in nature. That was always the hardest concept for some people to understand. I was engaging in self injury as a way to keep myself from committing suicide. It was a safety valve for me, to let out the crazy so that I wasn’t pushed to more drastic and permanents means of quieting that internal storm.

Anyways, I’ve been so damn busy with this semester that I didn’t even realize that today was my 13th year of being SI free. Typically, I have a small ritual for myself, to mark the occasion. I usually get the birthday candles that come in the form of numbers to spell out how many years I’ve been SI free. And I haven’t even thought of picking those up. So hopefully I can squeeze in a trip to Target to pick up some candles and do a small ceremony for myself. And honestly, with how hard I’ve really been struggling to remain SI free, I deserve that damn ceremony. ::smiles::

85%

written:  April 10

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A FABULOUS surprise to come home to. My Canadian twin, Brandy, is visiting another dear friend up in New Jersey and saw this at one of Mary’s favorite crystal shops. It’s a lovely Larvikite (my absolute FAVORITE stone) bracelet. Gonna be rocking this bracelet tomorrow for sure. ::smiles::

Crazy windy day today. I like windy days to be honest. I like to envision the wind blowing all the crap energy away and leaving me clear and calm. I like just standing still and feeling the wind push against me. I like the way my hair snaps in the wind. Just brings out the more primal side of me. Everything else just falls away. It’s just me and the wind.

The students were in a much better mood today. No fights today, thank all that is holy for that. Granted, we had two after school clubs that quite a few of them attend, so they weren’t there for the first hour or so. But, whatever the case may be, I am still grateful for the break. I certainly need them to be less combative. ::chuckles:: I just hope that yesterday was a crazy fluke and we got all of that shit out of our systems.

Other than that, it was a nice quiet day at the F. Library. I’m now 85% done with my hours. I spent 2 hours continuing to work on the new special project of going through all the juvenile Mystery and Suspense books, writing down the ones that are in series, but do not have the series order listed on the spine. I was able to finish up the Mystery and Suspense section (the small section) today and begin on the Science Fiction and Fantasy section. This is, by far, the largest section, but I should be able to get it all done before my final day. And that is swiftly approaching. Just 6 days left. I will miss working at the F. Library. I really have enjoyed it. Maybe I’ll bring cookies on the last day to show my appreciation? I know I will certainly write a thank you letter to Jennifer for giving me this opportunity to do my Practicum hours there. And, it doesn’t hurt to butter up potential employers or at least ensure I receive a stellar recommendation when I apply for other jobs. ::smiles::

Submitted

written: April 09

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A photo of the cool stone I got as a part of the Storm Witch box (monthly box) from the lovely Inked Goddess Creations. It’s a piece of Fulgurite – a stone created when lightning strikes the earth. And I like that it kind of looks like a vertebrae bone – so it will be perfect to put on the Harpies’ altar….you know…once I actually get it set up. ::chuckles:: Seriously, I just need a year with no work and with an unlimited amount of money, and I could finally get all the decorating, altar creation, and gardening plans DONE and done WELL. ::chuckles:: Just need someone to fund that dream. ::smiles::

In other news, I submitted my registration to take the EOP (End of Program) exam today! It was the first day to register for the June test. I remembered to do this right as I was headed out the door to go to work. I had to use my university email account (which I NEVER use) to do the registration and figured I would just check that email account when I got to work. Well, I couldn’t remember the damn password, so I had to wait until I got home to check for a confirmation email. Which I did receive. But it basically says, we’ll contact you if there is an issue. Don’t contact us. We won’t respond. Just wait and see if you can access the EOP info through Canvas on May 31st. ::blinks:: So I have to wait until May 31st to see if I even get to take the EOP in June???? ::flails:: That is SO NOT how I work. ::laughs::

If I had to sum up this semester in one word, that word would be Patience. It’s trying every level of patience I possess – and admittedly, I do NOT possess much patience, even on a good day, even with minor matters. And lemme tell you, this damn EOP is NOT a minor issue for me. Needless to say, I have been doing a lot of “conversing” (prayer just doesn’t encompass it – it just feels very one-sided to me) with my deities and spirits, asking for their aid and suggestions in this matter. But I’m basically being told to pause. To sit with it. That it will work out as it should. I just need to be patient and go with the flow for now. ::grumbles::

Looking to the Future

written: April 08

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Getting close to blooming time. I can’t wait. I plan to cut some to have on my altar for my deities and spirits. And as the roses age, I’ll harvest them and dry the petals. I think the second round of blooming is when I’ll try my hand at making rose water.

So I decided to take a peek at listings for library jobs. I’m pleasantly surprised at how many are listed and that many fall close paying what I may – and quite a few surpass it. Just sucks that I can’t apply for them right now. ::chuckles:: If nothing else, I have to wait until I finish up my practicum hours at the F. Library. And by that point, honestly I should just wait until the end of the semester so I can focus on the final papers for my two classes. And honestly, honestly, I should wait until after I do the EOP (End of Program) exam. ::sighs:: I just don’t like waiting. Oh well. It’s just a few months. And I’m sure it will be here before I know it. Which reminds me, I’ll need to completely revamp my resume as well. ::sighs:: Why is it for every step I want to take forward, there are like five hundred steps I have to do BEFORE I can take that ONE STEP?

My replacement order of the Synergy 12 oil by Sage Goddess (the one I got in a trade and the promptly dropped on the bathroom floor – yeah, it shattered ALL OVER THE place; though, my bathroom did smell amazing there for a while) arrived today. Sage Goddess was also giving away a mini bottle of Synergy 12 spray and two stones (Tanzanite and Petalite) with any purchase, so I figured it was the perfect time to snag a replacement bottle of that oil.