I Cannot Do It All

written:  October 11

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I came home to find this awesome postcard in my mailbox from John. ::smiles:: I had sent him one of the old-timey postcards of my city that I had stumbled across.

It was a very long day at work due to the early release bullshit. Tell me again why elementaries have to have an early release day every 9 weeks? It’s stupid really. But hey, more money for me!

It looks like Jess will be about for a while at work. She broke her foot last Friday, chasing after our BIC kiddo. Worker’s Comp FINALLY approved her to see a specialist, but the appointment isn’t until Tuesday. Poor girl!

Which, apparently I’m getting a new aide on Tuesday as well? News to me. But I will welcome an extra person with open arms right now because I’m running myself completely ragged at this point. Thankfully we have gotten some really good subs (like Donavan that we’ve had the past two days – he’s flipping AMAZING and I would give my left arm to keep him on my campus).

But I’ll spend next week getting the new aide (Victoria) up to speed. And then I’ll start training all of the staff on ProCare and attendance and documentation. I really have taken too much of that responsibility on myself and Jess and this year is showing me, very blatantly, that I cannot do it all myself. I was able to do that in the beginning. But now? Now I have 20 more students, less staff, and more with behavioral issues. I am not Super Woman and it’s time to start getting my staff to really step up.

It’s not that they don’t want to step up…I just haven’t taken the time to show them how to, and I accept the blame for that. But this year…especially if I end up getting the part-time job at the F. B. Library (which I desperately want)…I am going to have to turn some of the reigns over to them.

Still haven’t heard anything today about the F. B. Library. But one of the libraries closer to my home that the starting pay is more than I was even thinking of asking for contacted me. I have three essay questions to do by the 16th, and if I’m selected for an interview they will contact me then. If not, then I won’t hear anything back. So I’ll do the essays and keep my fingers crossed. Because a full-time job would be so much nicer than doing two part-time jobs. Even if one of those jobs pays stupidly well and gives me full benefits and the other job…pays shit, but gets me into the field). It would just be nice to have ONE job that takes care of it all. And this library is about 15 minutes away, whereas F. B. Library is 25 to 30 minutes away, depending on traffic.