Just Breathe

The whole house-hunting thing has me stressed out, anxious, and a tad depressed.  I was being snarky (I know, such a SHOCK!), asking myself "What the fuck am I supposed to be relishing in this whole ordeal?"

After all, relish is the word that descended upon me, knocking the other word I was eye-balling out of the damn park.  I do still need to type up that entry.....

Anyways, I was taking my third walk with Holly (which, by the way, she turned FOURTEEN today!), and it hit me.  While I may not be relishing the house-hunting insanity....it doesn't mean I cannot relish the rest of life.  I can relish the walks with Holly.  I can relish my time at the after school program with my awesome students.  I can relish my journal writing.  And I can relish doing nothing if that is exactly what I need to do in the moment.

And while I adore my friends and would love to truly engage with each of them, I just can't in this moment.  But while I may not have any engaging, witty, or insightful comments, I can at least let them know I care about them.

I don't know where my superman complex comes from or why it pops up at certain times. But given how I was the one to bring our lil journaling group together to do the NaJoWriMo (National Journal Writing Month) challenges, I felt like I had to be fully engaged and fully involved with each and every single journal entry each person writes.  Currently, there are twelve people in our little NaJoWriMo group -- that is 31 entries per person...plus the 31 entries of my own.  I just don't have the time or the sanity to delve in deep with each one of them....and some write the most beautiful, earth-shaking entries.  So I'll probably come back to those another month, when I'm a bit more together.  But I can at least let them know I'm supporting them in whatever endeavors they are embarking on.  ::smiles::  And that will be enough.

Husband and I have since expanded our house-hunting to include of a C-town (instead of the small neighborhood we originally picked), plus L-ville.  While hubs isn't thrilled about possibly living in L-ville, there are two houses that I just adore -------  that are also inside our price-range!  Woot!  So I've emailed Fred about those two, so hopefully we can see those soon.  And Thursday morning, we're finally getting to look at one house in C-town that only had 3 street-view photos.  Hopefully that's not because the interior is horrible. 

And seeing as how it's closing in on 1 am....I'm going to close this for now and take my punk ass to bed.