Sprout

written: September 07

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This is either one of my lilies or one of my daffodils sprouting up again. I’m super excited about the possibility of having them come back up for another round of blooming.

We had Mackenzie out again today. Work crush is still going strong. ::laughs:: Even though all of us were exhausted and not running at 100%. But I did manage to go to the public library and pick up some movies for our movie day at work. I picked up <U>FernGully</U>, the original <U>Jungle Book</U>, and the first <U>Land Before Time</U>. The kiddos got to vote and so we watched <U>FernGully</U>. ::smiles::

All in all, not a bad end to a very shitty week. I was able to actually talk about my depression with David earlier this evening. It’s just hard for him to understand because he doesn’t have major depression…he doesn’t have chronic depression. But he’s very supportive of whatever avenue I choose to try to help my depression.

Rough Fucking Day

written: September 06

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A note on our vending machine at work that made me chuckle out loud.

Damn, depression was BAD this morning. Like....REALLY, REALLY bad. Hello suicide ideation. Haven’t been that bad in ages. I’m just thankful it wasn’t ACTIVE suicide ideation – I wasn’t actively planning how to kill myself. It was more passive – like, “why NOT spend money on a certain item? Not like I’m going to stick around long enough to have to pay for it.” One of the VERY few times you will hear me say, thank GOD for a staff meeting! ::laughs:: But seriously, it got me out of my house and forced me to focus on things OTHER than how shitty I was feeling, and that is usually a good cure (even if only temporarily) for the Oily Voice inside my head.

Due to a mix up on Megan’s part (one of my aides), we got Mackenzie as a sub today, even though we didn’t “need” her. And holy crap, I still just adore her. It’s like a friggin’ work crush. I’m not sexually attracted to her at all, but holy fuck, I’m in love with her as a coworker. ::laughs:: I’m not sure that makes any sense, but hey, that’s what I’m dealing with. I do hope we get her again tomorrow, when Megan really will be out for the first half of our work day.

Fuck, to show just how much of a work crush I have…I willingly offered and gave Mackenzie one of my Starbuck’s Frappuccinos (the ones in the bottle). I don’t share those with ANYONE. ::laughs:: But, thanks to Jess (my stellar aide), we have a mini-frig in our office, so I’m able to take advantage of 7-11’s sale (buy 2 for $5…instead of one for $2.99). So I had an extra one in the frig that hadn’t been opened. And I didn’t even hesitate offering it to Mackenzie. THAT’S how deep this work crush goes. ::chuckles:: And this is like the 2nd time I’ve ever interacted with her. Seriously, I would willingly give up ANY of my aides (other than Jess…I’m keeping her no matter what) to have Mackenzie on my campus full time.

12th Hatch-Day

written: September 05

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One of my roses finally bloomed.

Happy 12th hatch-day to Leviathan!

Here’s the front of her Hatch-day card:



And the back:



I think they turned out pretty damn cute. Hard to believe my serpent is a friggin’ pre-teen! ::cackles::

I was hoping to get a photo of my Lil Beast on her hatch-day, but she wasn’t feeling overly photogenic today. I will try again another day. I can’t believe that next year, she’ll be friggin’ THIRTEEN years old.

And I need to be honest with myself. She’s getting older. She’s definitely slowing down. I need to take more photos of her. I need to let her spend more time outside, climbing in the little tree. She definitely deserves more than just hanging out in her tank, day-in and day-out.

Stalked

written: September 04

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Some of the lovely morning glories on the back-neighbor’s fence. I would love to have some on our own fence. I don’t think I would go with the “traditional” lavender, such as these. Maybe the royal blue ones? Or there are apparently some “black” morning glories that are a deep, deep maroon color (Kniolas Black Night morning glories). Those are stunning.

Man, dragonflies were STALKING me big time today. On my walk with Josey pup, I saw at least four dozen dragonflies. And I’m talking the BIG ones as well. And I saw more on my drive to work and more once I got home.

Ok, ok, ok, Spirit. I get it. I need to actually LOOK into the Dragonfly totem and stop just glossing over it.

Labor Day

written: September 03

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Small rose blossom in the rain.

Rain, rain, and more rain is what we got today. And I loved it. Josey pup and I got up early and took a walk. There were no people out. Even the birds were mostly quiet. So it was just me and the pup, and the soft pitter of drizzling rain for the bulk of the walk. Talk about heaven on earth! I wish more of my morning walks were like this. Humans tend to just irritate the crap out of me. ::chuckles::

David swapped out the handles in my shower – I broke the cold water one a few days ago. They originally were these horrible cheap plastic spiky ones (like the ones you see in cheap motels). Honestly, I’m surprised they lasted 2 years. ::chuckles:: Now I just have regular handles, which are so much nicer to my hands. ::smiles::

I am not allowed to buy any more granola. I thought I had zero willpower when it came to glazed donuts…but apparently zero willpower is achieved with granola. I bought a bag today and it’s almost already all gone. ::laughs:: I really need to look into finding a recipe I like and making my own. Because this is ridiculous!

Let’s see what else did I get accomplished today? Oh, wrote 2 pen pals and a Postcrossing post card. Yay me! I still have 3 more pen pals to reply to. ::chuckles::

And I got some more reading done in The Woman in the Shaman’s Body. It’s such a good book, but chocked FULL of information. So it’s not a light, quick read. I’ve been working my way through this book for over a month now. But I’m getting close to the end now. I will definitely be buying a copy of this book in the future to keep in my own personal collection. And I definitely want to look into all the books and articles the author references throughout her book.

Dragon

written: September 02

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We went to Home Depot to pick up new handles for my shower (I broke the cold water one) and we found their AMAZING Halloween decoration area. I seriously wanted this dragon. It was a good 5 feet tall, lights up, roars, and comes with a smoke machine so it can breathe smoke!!!!! But it’s massive and it’s $300…so sadly we were unable to bring the dragon home with us.

The hubs and I were complete and utter bums today. We are re-watching all of the Walking Dead on Netflix currently. And yeah, that’s about the extent of what we’ve done today. ::chuckles::

Dive In

written: September 01

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Cute coffee mug I saw at the Cracker Barrel. I was seriously bummed that they didn’t have any more of the Ouija board mints. But I have to say, it doesn’t surprise me. I’m sure someone had a hissy fit about it and they had to get rid of them.

I did end up finding some at the Spirit Halloween store that popped up in the local shopping area. They are a dollar more expensive, but I’m just happy to have found them. I picked up a few more that I plan to send to some pen pals and friends. Which reminds me, I need to start figuring out who all I’m sending Mabon cards to. I have a blessing I want to include in the cards, so I’m waiting for that to arrive (I had them printed). Then I guess I should really get a handle on that, with Mabon coming up on the 23rd.

I had forgotten how busy life gets once we hit September – with all the birthdays, anniversaries, sabbats/esbats, not to mention work requirements and college requirements – life doesn’t slow down again until Winter Break in December. Just gotta take a deep breath and dive right in.