Hell Froze Over

So yeah, I guess I should update. ::chuckles::

Down here in Texas, we are getting friggin’ steamrolled by this Polar Vortex. We should be coming out of it soon, but damn. It’s been a brutal week thus far.

Our heater stopped working right at the beginning, so that was a shitty 72 hours before we were able to get a tech out to “fix” it. And I say “fix” it, because it still isn’t working correctly. But it’s kind of working. We have electricity. We have water. And we aren’t currently under a boil notice. So that’s all great compared to the BULK of the rest of the state. So yes, I am DEEPLY grateful for these things.

The Library has been closed since Monday. But the City has decreed that the Library will be open tomorrow. Yeah, I’m taking a vacation day and not risking life, limb, and car for the crap pay. I have Friday off because I’m scheduled to work Saturday. Saturday is slated to be worlds better, so I’m hoping it won’t be awful. Plus, I need to go in because I have lots of photos and whatnot that I want to print out to put in my journal! ::laughs:: And I need to at least bring home the addresses for Rexie, the unofficial dino mascot for our Library, to write to her various library pen pals. If nothing else, I need to pick out what postcards I will be sending.

I’ve applied to two local libraries. But that was like a day or two before the State froze over, so I haven’t heard anything back. I’m hoping that is the reason why I haven’t heard anything and not because they don’t want me. I really, really, REALLY want to leave my current Library. I mean, I’ll miss my geesies a LOT, but the number of reasons to leave that Library keep on stacking up.

::goes back and reads her last entry to see what needs updating::

Van Van Oil It’s done and holy hell, I ADORE how it smells. It’s got so much pep and zing to it. Seriously awesome oil.

Allergy Thing I’m still shedding skin. I’ve decided it’s just my Snake Time. Because I’m sluffing off a LOT of dead skin. And this is with me using a sugar scrub in the showers AND slathering on lotion once I get out. ::shrugs:: It’s not as bad as it was a few weeks ago, but it’s still noticeable.

Backlogged Daily Photos My plan for this is to just make back-dated daily entries for each photo. Not sure when I’ll get to that, but I’ll work on it as I can.

Mariana Trench Level

Eh, I haven’t updated here in over a week, so I guess I’m about due for that. ::chuckles::

Yeah, depression came along and dumped my ass into the deep end. And then drug me all the way to the bottom of the Mariana Trench, where I’ve been basically chilling this whole time.

I’ll get around to posting my backlogged daily photos. You’ll get to see cute photos of me and my Geese Posse. Fuck man, they seriously give me LIFE right now. I’m able to pet some of them as long as I have food in my hand. They come when they SEE me. I don’t even have to call them now. ::chuckles:: I am hoping this continues through nesting season. I want the babies to come up to me! I’m already planning how to handle that situation so that I don’t break the trust I have with the adult geese and I don’t die in the process. ::smiles::

The Van Van Oil I started on the 1st is looking gorgeous. I can’t wait until the 31st when I get to open it up and see what it smells like. January’s Full Moon is swiftly approaching, and I have NO idea what oil to make. The clock is ticking and I’m hyper aware of it, but I have no inspiration. I dunno. I have an idea and have most of the oils needed to make it. I just need one more. I might go that way. Eh, went ahead and bought that particular oil. Even if I go a different way with this Full Moon’s oil, I can make the one I’m thinking about another time.

Eh, I’m all over the place. Depression, anxiety, and post-migraine brain fog is fabulous for that. I didn’t go to work today due to the aforementioned migraine. It started last night and didn’t break until about 5 pm today. It wasn’t the worst I’ve ever had, but damn, it just wouldn’t quit.

In positive news, I received a FABULOUS unexpected refund check from the hospital I had my ablation surgery done at 2 years ago. And when I say fabulous, I mean fabulous to the tune of $778. I damn near fell out of my chair when I saw that check. I even read where they write out the words of the check, just to make sure my eyes weren’t playing tricks on me in the number portion. Seven hundred seventy-eight hundred dollars. Woohoo! I almost wanted to call the hospital and ask what the check was for, but I elected to just keep my mouth shut and be grateful. No way I’m going to look this much needed gift horse in the mouth right now.

On the allergy attack that my quasi-supervisor triggered – I’m doing better. The hives are gone and the rash is finally gone. But now, I’m friggin’ scaly. Like a snake before it sheds. My skin is so dry. And when I look at myself in the mirror…you can SEE where I had the hives and the rash. It almost looks like scarring. ::shakes her head:: I’ve done a skin patch test, and a good lotion I have (scented) does not trigger a reaction, so I’ve been slathering that on like twice a day. If nothing else, at least I smell nice. ::rolls her eyes:: I still haven’t heard back from Worker’s Comp if they are going to pay for my doctor’s visit or comp me my missed hours ::sighs:: Guess I’ll give them a call/email tomorrow just to touch base and see where that is standing.

Relaxing Day

Today’s Photo:

This just tells you how insane last week was. I received this AMAZING besom from April sometime last week, but just now had the time and energy to open up the box and really look at it. It’s just gorgeous! And the fact that it’s made by a truly amazing and dear friend just makes it even more magickal. I am truly blessed beyond belief.

Today was a fabulous, relaxing day. Exactly what I so desperately needed. I was supposed to do Tarot & Tea with Hazel Nut today, but her work ended up calling an emergency meeting and she had to cancel. So we are doing it tomorrow at 7 pm.

I did get a shower and changed the sheets on my bed. ::chuckles:: Yay me for adulting.

Leviathan was out, looking cute:

Gah, I just adore my lavender lady. ::smiles::

A Good Sunday

Today’s Photo:

These are the Theater of Star washi tapes I was talking about yesterday. Aren’t they lovely? ::smiles::

Welp, Ravioli has been handed off to my cousin Lauren. I will certainly miss that little lizard, but I know she’s going to a great home. Lauren’s son make her keep his birthday decorations up for Ravioli, so she could enjoy them as well. ::smiles:: I mean, how cute is that?

I now have a mostly cleared off art table in my room, which is nice. I will clean the rest of it off tomorrow. And I’m thinking this may be where I organize my essential oils and herbs. And later on, where I have the stuff to pack up my oils that I create and sell as well. Which reminds me, I need to go to the Dollar Tree and pick up some cheap bins to help keep shit organized. I’ve begun compiling a list of supplies I already have, but that needs to be finished as well.

I won’t get all of that done tomorrow, as I already have plans. Hazel Nut and I will be a LONG OVERDUE Tarot and Tea tomorrow afternoon. And, since we are supposed to get rain Tuesday and Wednesday, I want to gather acorns tomorrow, while it is still nice. I should be able to gather a big bag of the Burr Oak acorns easily tomorrow. I am looking forward embarking on my nutty endeavor of mine to learn how to process acorns.

Journals and Dragons

 written: January 16

Photo for today:

Part of my journal entry from today.

I woke up bright and early at 8:30 am. On my day off. ::grumbles:: Oh well. I figured I might as well get up and get some things done. I deposited our two Christmas checks – woohoo for Christmas money. And then, as a reward for being a responsible adult, I went to Michael’s.

I was planning on only picking up a silver pen and a gold pen. But, I came across a new Recollections collect – it’s called Theater of Stars. And it has a real witchy vibe going on. So I picked up the sticker book and the matching washi tape. I know, I know, I sure as shit do not need MORE washi tape…but I couldn’t resist. So yeah, I need to put my washi tapes in the bin Hubs bought me.

Oh, and while we are talking washi tape – the washi tape I ordered came in. The two rolls of book washi tape will go to work with me. They are for my coworkers, Abby and Clarissa. You can’t bullet journal and work in a library and not have book washi tape. ::chuckles::

Tomorrow, Ravioli will be traveling on to her forever home. I am going to miss the lil dragon. She’s rather cute and I have become fond of her. Maybe, at some point in the future, I’ll get a bearded dragon of my own.

Still Here

 written: January 15

Photo for today:

And thus, construction begins in my part of the Library. They’ve already gutted the two bathrooms down in my area. Who knows what it will look like when I get back in there Tuesday. ::chuckles:: I’m just hoping it all goes smoothly as possible and is done as quickly as possible.

I got the bulk of the coloring packets made up for our passive program. It’s fairly easy – just a 4 pack of crayons and a coloring sheet in a white paper bag. And then the bag is sealed shut with one of three stickers – a princess, a dino, or a lego – depending on what coloring sheet is inside. I just need some more white bags to finish up the last of the lego coloring sheets, and I’ll be completely done.

I am seriously looking forward to this three day weekend. I fucking need it so bad. I need a long weekend to just REST and get my head back on straight. Sucks having a major mental break down at the beginning of a work week.

Which, thinking back to that, I’m seriously glad I didn’t cut. The blade I have on me all the time is razor sharp. And with as out of control as I was that day…there’s no way I would have cut myself without requiring stitches. There would have been zero self control. I would have just flayed my arm up, and then freaked out because of the damage I did. ::shakes her head:: Yeah, that was a VERY BAD day.

But I made it through it. Without resorting to non-suicidal self-injurious behavior. And that’s MASSIVE win. I don’t think I’ve ever been tested that hard since I stopped doing that. Hell, even the insanity in 2020 didn’t test me as hard as that one day. ::shakes her head:: But I’m still here. I’m still standing. And I’m still fighting.

Weary

 written: January 14th

Photo for today:

My ADORABLE mini-stamps from the Sniggle Sloth arrived today. It’s a Canada Goose in flight and Sekhmet. I must admit, I was completely shocked when I saw they had a Sekhmet stamp. One doesn’t typically come across Sekhmet that often. Isis? Sure. Ra? Possibly. Even Anubis is more popular. Sekhmet is one of those who tends to not reside in the limelight. She could care less about popularity. ::chuckles::

I did my preliminary work on this moon’s New Moon Charm. I’m not pleased with it just yet. It seems.....very....unfinished. I’ll have to tweak it more. Once I get that figured out and settled, I’ll share a photo of that.

I’m still very much in survival mode in regards to work. I’m just so damn tired. Thus far, Quasi-Supervisor is playing very nicely. And as long as he’s civil, we can maintain this working relationship for as long as needs be.