written: October 26
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I swiped this pair of cat ears from a student and said I was a “Cool
Cat” for Halloween. ::chuckles:: Though, seriously, now I’m thinking
of getting myself a set of cat ears and doing that as a quick and easy
Halloween costume. Not sure how costume-friendly my next job will be.
Ha! I should write that down for any job interviews I do in the future,
as I never know what to ask them when they say “Do you have any
questions for us?”. Would make my application and interview stand out a
bit if I was like “Yes. When Halloween rolls around, how costume
friendly is this work environment? Do you encourage your staff to dress
up? Is it ‘minor dressing up’ such as cat ears or a witch’s hat? Or
do your employees go all out?” ::chuckles::
So I grew a set of balls and called my doctor. I have an appointment
next Friday to discuss going on anti-depressants possibly. Honestly,
she has the most complete medical record on me – including all the meds
that haven’t worked for me and HOW they haven’t worked for me – so I
feel a bit more confident in her abilities. Otherwise, I would be
sifting through psychiatrists…AGAIN….so I can go over my medical
history…AGAIN….and pay out the nose for all of that. ::shakes her
head:: Naw, I don’t really want to do that all over again. I do still
need to contact my original psychiatrist and get a list of the various
medications we tried (and that failed). I’m not sure I have all of
those on file with Dr. O. Though, I get the serious pleasure of telling
them my last period was in MAY and that I had an ablation done in June.
BLISS. ::chuckles:: Best damn procedure EVER. I just wish I had
known about it when I got my tubes tied in 2010. I would have had it
done at the same time, and not dealt with an extra EIGHT goddamn years
of shitty periods.
Anyways, after making the appointment, I felt so damn good and proud
of myself, I decided I needed to carve the JUMBO Pumpkin of DOOM. I am
so pleased with how he turned out:
AND I had this massive Witchy flash of insight. I usually put a
piece of cardboard under the Jack-
o-Lantern – and I thought “Why not
write an affirmation on that cardboard, and every time I light the
candle inside, it would activate the affirmation”. And once the
Halloween season is over, I could burn the cardboard with the
affirmation to release it fully into the universe. And then BAM, it hit
me! Why not make the candle inside the Jack-o-Lantern a SPELL CANDLE
as well????
So boom, there I went, mini-ritual on the fly. I wrote four wishes
on the candle and anointed each wish with a corresponding oil. So now,
when I light the candle inside the Jack-o-Lantern, the wishes will be
sent into the universe AND so will the affirmation. Like, why the fuck
haven’t I been doing this all this time? Shit, I’ve been a Pagan for 22
years now, and I’m just now thinking of this? But then again, I
haven’t heard of any other Witch/Pagan doing this, so I shared the info
in my 2 Facebook Pagan groups and on my FB wall as well. While I won’t
share the actual affirmation or the 4 wishes themselves, I am more than
happy to share the IDEA/CONCEPT. I’m working on the whole 4 Powers (To
Know, To Dare, To Will, and To Be Silent) – mostly on the whole To Be
Silent. I’m keeping more of my witchery to myself now-a-days. I don’t
mind sharing How-Tos, but my ACTUAL magick? Yeah, I’m keeping my mouth
shut on that stuff. Like, I’ll tell you how to do a Wooden Match Spell,
but I won’t tell you what I did MY Wooden Match Spell for. Make sense?
Kind of does, at least to me. ::chuckles::
