Children's Librarian?

Perhaps not.

I got fucking ambushed yesterday in a meeting with my boss and super head honcho lady. Apparently, I suck so much ass at my job, it’s a wonder I even have a job. Even though NOTHING HAS BEEN SAID TO ME ABOUT BEING SO HORRIBLE AT MY JOB AT ALL.

Like, head honcho lady was like “maybe you should ask yourself if you even WANT to be a children’s librarian.” Like, what the actual fuck? And then went on to say it was 100% ok if I didn’t and that I could switch over to being a regular librarian. And I’m just sitting here, completely fucking blindsided, wondering what the fuck is going on.

Greetings from Plague Land

Yep. Still here. Still Plague-ish. But getting better. I can HEAR now, which is nice. Because for about a week and a half, I couldn’t, thanks to a double ear infection.

Shit, at this point, I almost wish it HAD been Omicron. I think I would have gotten over that swifter than this allergy/cold/sinus/ear infection what-ever-the-fuck-it-mutated-into of DOOM that I’m STILL fighting off. Shit, I’ve been fighting this since the last week of DECEMBER. ::sighs:: But I’m on the mend. I’m feeling like 75% human, and only 25% plague rat, which is a VAST improvement. My ear still crackle when I yawn or swallow. I still have a cough, but it isn’t soul rattling, so that’s an improvement.

I’ve decided that since the calendar new year was a complete and utter bust for me due to Plague of Doom shit, I’m doing a Do Over on the Lunar New Year. Kind of makes more sense to me as well, given I’m more lunar attuned than calendar, so I’m giving that a go this time around. Plus the Year of the Tiger is supposed to be a really good year for a Rooster like me. So here’s hoping! ::chuckles softly::

Also, talking with April, I came to realize that I need to do a Power/Soul Retrieval/Recall. I have left little bits of myself in previous jobs, relationships, friendships, etc, that no longer serve me. I need to call back that energy and properly cut those ties. I think that’s part of the reason I’m constantly feeling so spread thin.

The house is also begging for a smoke cleansing and warding. Hell, my body is begging for a smoke cleansing as well.

Not Covid...

 Maybe.

Test came back as negative for COVID. But, all the symptoms point to COVID. And my husband ended up with the same symptoms for about 36 hours. So it really makes me doubt it was the flu. ::shrugs:: Sucks that the test was negative, because that means all that work time I missed is coming out of my PTO instead of the Covid PTO the city set up. ::sighs:: Oh well, that’s just how the damn cookie is crumbling.

I’m on the upswing at this point. Just have the lingering cough and the rattling chest that goes with the cough. Everything else, symptom-wise, is gone. I’ll get to go back to work on Tuesday (Library isn’t open on Sundays or Mondays).

I am thinking of trying my hand at making some magickal candles utilizing the magickal oils I currently have on hand. First and foremost would be to make some Red Fast Luck Oil Candles using some red tea lights I have. Eventually I want to make some larger candles with my Fiery Wall of Protection Oil in it, and some with my Van Van Oil and my Crown of Success Oil. And I’ve got a whole list of money/prosperity oils that would go well into green tea lights. Could be a lot of fun.

Who knows? Maybe this will motivate me to get back into making magickal oils again. I’m damn good at it. I don’t really know why I stopped. Just kind of ran out of magickal steam, I guess.

COVID or....

So yeah....gonna get tested tomorrow to see if I have COVID or if this is something else. Seriously NOT looking forward to this. ::sighs::

Let’s see. Boss lady was out all of last week with COVID. Work bestie, Carli – her husband’s work was closed last week because so many of his coworkers tested positive with COVID. She was supposed to get tested, but was out yesterday, so I don’t know what her status is. And then Noemy, another coworker, found out last week that the family she hung out with over Christmas have all tested positive for COVID. She was out yesterday as well, so I don’t know her status either.

And I’m rocking a deep chest cough (have been for a while – was pretty sure it was allergies, but allergy meds aren’t helping now), and yesterday, I developed deep muscle pain in my neck and legs, along with extreme fatigue, and then spiked a fever about an hour before I was due to head home. ::sighs::

But yeah, I luckily managed to snag a very coveted spot in one of the drive thru COVID testing sites that the county set up for tomorrow. But it will still be 48 hours or so before I know the results of that test. So I text boss lady to let her know that (I claimed migraine for today so I didn’t have to go to work, which yeah, my head aches, but mostly, I just can’t turn my head, hence driving is problematic. And I’m exhausted just coming down the stairs in the morning, so yeah, NOT going to work) I would be late coming in to work tomorrow because of the test and she asked if I was presenting any symptoms other than the headache. Like, bitch, you were sitting beside me all day yesterday listening to me hack up my lungs. So I rattled off the symptoms I am experiencing, and she told me not to come in with those symptoms. ::laughs::

2022

Welp, made it 2022.

Phrase for this year is Fuck It. No seriously, it is. ::laughs:: It’s what I’ve titled my birthday goals as well – Fuck it, I’m 40. ::laughs::
And it’s seriously, rather freeing. Want to do something crazy? Fuck it, I’m 40. Let’s do it.
Want to do something that people will probably side-eye me for because it’s not “normal”? Fuck it, I’m 40. Let’s do it.
So fucking freeing. I’m loving it.

I’m planning to make a return here. For 2021, I was doing a daily art journal thing, so that’s where most of my writing, when it was occurring, was taking place. And I just didn’t feel like rehashing it again for digital content.

I’m getting my newest journal ready to go for a swap I’m doing. It’s the first one I’m doing since pre-COVID. I was supposed to host one right when COVID broke out, but ended up cancelling that one because the mail service became so extremely unreliable. But it’s been 2 years now, and so I’m itching to do another one. And in this round, I have two newbies, which makes me so happy. I love bringing in new faces to try out journal swapping. I just hope it all goes as smoothly as possible. That’s always a bit iffy when you bring together a pack of creatives. ::chuckles::

Oh, new thing for me – I’ve recently gotten into Spirit Keeping. You can read about it here. I don’t feel like summing it up. I’m lazy. Bite me.

As of right now, I have a Basilisk, a Pink Dragon, and an Arctic Werewolf. I have an Ice Dragon that should be here on Monday. And I’m loving these Spirit Companions. So yeah, I’ll probably be talking quite a bit about them from time to time.

At the moment, the Basilisk is the one I interact with the most. Which is interesting, because the conjurer said that he would actually be a very quiet spirit. ::chuckles:: We interact a few times a week at minimum since he arrived. And the Ice Dragon has been very chatty, before he was even properly summoned. And his vessel isn’t even here yet. So I’m pretty sure once that arrives and we properly bond, he’ll be a very active spirit.

Hmm, and I think I’ll close there. I’ll let the other things I could ramble about percolate in my brain meats a bit longer and see if they become a bit more coherent.
I’m hoping to NOT have a migraine today. Texas weather has decided it wanted to go from Summer to Winter in the span of a few hours. It was 71 degrees at noon (when I go up). And our low tonight is 21 degrees. That a fucking 50 degree DROP. What the hell, Texas? So yeah, I can feel the pressure change in my skull, but thus far, no migraine. ::knocks on all the damn wood she can find::

Blue

 written: November 11th

Continuing my celebration of my 40th birthday, I got blue put back in my hair the day after my birthday.

First up, bleaching:

Then the blue dye:

And the finished product, I just love it.

Hair down:

Hair up:

I fucking LOVE it.

Forty

 written: Nov 10th

So today is my 40th birthday.
I took the day off, because I never work on my birthday if I can help it. And I sure as shit wasn’t going to work on a big number birthday. ::chuckles::

And in my typical fashion, I headed off to the zoo to celebrate. ::smiles::

Looking fucking fabulous at forty:

Me, with the white-necked ravens.

I had a kick ass time at the zoo. I got some nice photos that I’ll be posting those up on my DeviantArt account over the next few weeks.

And then a FABULOUS storm rolled in this evening. The perfect end to my birthday.
Onwards and upwards, bitches.