Grimoire Plans

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Cover page for my 2020 Grimoire. I covered up my Craft name because I don’t share that with anyone. Period.

The rainbow moonstone (which isn’t too rainbow, if you ask me) is from Sage Goddess. I am thinking of getting a long chain and making it a necklace to wear. Or I may just hang it up in my room. Once I get my Gammé built, it will hang inside there.

I am asking all of my Pagan friends if they have book recommendations on Pagan books for children. There are ZERO in the F.B. Library, and I would like to add a few, here and there. We deserve representation in the library as well. So once I am able to place book orders, I will be adding a few to the library.

Today has been wonderfully calm and quiet here at the house. I’m working on compiling a list of topics I want to cover in my Grimoire. I want it to be a true reflection of MY Path, so I won’t be adding in anything that doesn’t pertain to my Path and that I haven’t performed myself. So yeah, not adding in what days of the week are best for what types of magick, because that has nothing to do with my practice what-so-ever. Just like I won’t be including candle color for magick. I know that stuff by heart, so there’s no reason to write it down.

This coming year, I will really be looking critically at my own Practice. I am going to be paring down the fluff that doesn’t work for me and focusing solely on the core that resonates with me.

I have a good feeling about this.

Boring Friday

written: December 06

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My view at work. I can’t wait for the spring to roll around and everything green up and all the baby ducks and whatnot. I will certainly take my good camera up to work and go do photography on my lunch break.

I had literally NOTHING to do today at work. I did finish up enrolling for all my benefits. And I re-read the policies – NOTHING about having unnatural hair color. ::grins toothily:: No worries. It would be a while before I could afford to get fun colors put in my hair AND I would definitely check with the Director before doing that as well. Nothing worse than paying all that money only to be told you can’t have it. Then you have to spend the money to strip out the color or cut it.

I should take my personal journal up there and do my daily entries. I already have a work journal that I keep up with where I’m supposed to be each hour. So I think it would be a little weird to carry around two journals. I’ve tried writing in my work journal and then transfer it over into my written journal. But it just doesn’t feel “right”. I just can’t do that kind of writing in the work journal. ::shrugs:: It’s one of those weird things my brain just can’t do. I’m thinking of installing a journaling software on my tablet and using it possibly.

I dunno. I just don’t do well sitting for hours without anything to do. I hate just sitting and twiddling my damn thumbs for hours on end. I asked around and none of the other librarians had anything they needed help on either. Not even the director.

Grimoire

written: December 05

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Photos just do not do this piece justice at all.
“Protected Heart” by the FABULOUSLY talented Luna Blue Boutique.

I will be putting this up in my cubical at work....once they remodel it…sometime early next year? There’s no way I would risk this piece being damaged or lost.

Today was a much better day. I don’t feel quite so anxious about it all. We had our monthly staff meeting this morning. And the director wasn’t joking when she said they go all out for snacks for those. There was at least three dozen donuts, the same amount of kolaches, and then a huge bowl of fruit. ::chuckles::

I picked up a new journal that I am going to use as a Grimoire. My intention is to keep a Grimoire this coming year. I picked up a Moleskin. I was tempted to get one of those leather ones, but those are too expensive and honestly, I think I would be afraid of “messing” it up. The one I got was a bit more expensive than the standard Moleskin, as it’s the “expanded” version (meaning it has a lot more pages). But I’m feeling really good about it. And I picked up some cheap fountain pens at Michaels. They are the disposable kind. I figure I’ll give them a try.

Cardboard

written: December 04

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A graphic novel I came across today at the library that reminded me of the horrible cardboard challenge we were expected to do each year at the after school program.

I will admit I had an evil thought of buying a copy and sending it to the after school program bosses. ::chuckles:: But even I’m not that sadistic to my fellow Campus Leaders and their aides. The cardboard challenge was always the worst thing. It is a great thing…if you have 12 or less students. But trying to do it with a campus of 70+? It’s utter insanity. ::shakes her head:: It was one of the few things that I absolutely refused to back down on when I would tell whatever supervisor I had at the time that my campus would NOT be participating in the event. Hell, I even wrote my own write up one time and signed it and sent it to my supervisor at the time. She had threatened that I would receive a write up if I didn’t do, so I went ahead and did myself and said that no, I would not be doing it. ::chuckles:: That supervisor had no idea what to do with me at that point. She backed way off at that point.

Panicking

written: December 03

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A post card I received today from Portugal via Postcrossing.

Today at work, Emily was fully decked out in a cute Christmas elf sweater with a ton of jingle bells. She sneezed earlier, and I piped up that it sounded like Santa came to town early. ::chuckles:: I think I’m going to fit in quite well with my co-workers.

The Da. Library sent me a criminal background check release form, so it would seem that I’m still being considered for that job. I won’t lie, I was tempted for a good while to go ahead and fill it out and see what they ended up offering. But then again, they’ve left me hanging in the breeze now for a while, so that definitely leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

And honestly, I’m mostly panicking over the fact that in January, I will be responsible for doing all the story times. Like the ones for babies. ::cue panic flailing:: I do not like babies. Or toddlers for the most part either. So yeah, I’m a bit anxious over that. And it’s a little intimidating to know that I am THE Children’s Librarian. I mean, yeah, Dustin is the youth services supervisor, but still. That’s one hell of a title to put on me right now and I’m terrified of fucking it up.

I just keep repeating to myself over and over that this is a learning experience. My co-workers all want me to succeed, which means their library succeeds. So they are going to help me when I need it. I just need to breath and focus on learning the steps right now.

1st Day

written: December 02

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Cool little notebook the Library Director gave me today.

Today was a day of complete and utter information overload. I am not ashamed to say towards the end I was beginning to panic. But my co-workers are seriously awesome, so that took some of the fear out of it.

It was nice to have the morning off, but SUCKED to work until 9 pm. But luckily that’s only on Mondays. The rest of my days are 9 am to 6 pm. This week I will work Friday, which means I have Saturday and Sunday off, which is nice! So hopefully, next Friday, I will be able to go visit my campus and see my students. I especially want to see Rileigh B., as she was absent my entire last week and she was one of my absolute favorites.

Hmm, I should get cracking on my thank you cards to all the students and families that gave me items on my last day as well. Writing thank you notes is something my maternal Grandmother was ADAMANT about. You ALWAYS thank someone when they go out of their way to give you a gift. And I certainly am deeply grateful for all the love and items the families gave me. I would like to have all of those cards written and ready to go by the time I get to visit my campus. Plus, I’m hoping to get a copy of Camden’s mom’s pumpkin loaf recipe. That was AMAZING.

New Beginning

written: December 01

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The last slice of pecan pie that my Uncle made for our family Turkey Day. He’s surprised all of us with how good of a cook he’s turned out to be.

New month. New hand-written journal. New job. Apparently December is my month of new things.

Tomorrow is my first day at the F.B. Library. I’m mostly excited and only a small bit anxious, which is a nice turn of events. Most of the time, a change of this size for me would have my anxiety running rampant.

I am still bit sad not to be going back to my students and my campus. Which is understandable. I’ve been there for 12 years. I worked damn hard to turn that campus around. When I first started, it was absolute chaos and the campus staff absolutely HATED us. It took me 4 years to turn that all around. And now, the campus sings our praises.