Lughnasadh

written:  August 01

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Beautiful Texas sun set. This is one of the nice things about smoking – it “forces” me outside more often, especially in this heat, and I get to see beautiful sights like this. ::chuckles:: I am cutting back on how MUCH I’m smoking, so that’s progress. During the End of Program Exam week, I was chain smoking and living off of coffee pretty much. I’ve been reigning that back in and getting it to a less dramatic level.

Blessed Lughnasadh! It’s the first harvest sabbat today. Traditionally, I would make a loaf of bread. But I didn’t this time around. Seems to be the theme for my year. I dunno. I’m just burnt out I guess. I celebrated it with the Coven, so I’m not beating myself up too much about it.

Blue

written:  July 31

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Ghostly Leviathan. If you look at her eyes, you can tell she’s gone “blue”. Her normally ruby red eyes are a milky blue color. She’ll shed sometime next week, so she’s a bit paler in color currently. I’ll have to make sure to get a photo of her once she’s shed. Her colors will be a bit more vibrant.

Well I finished up the Binders and the stuff I need for the documentation class yesterday, so technically I could have gone back to Technology today…but I decided I needed a ME day. Besides, Technology isn’t expecting me back until tomorrow anyways.

I finished up Sorcery of Thorns by Margaret Rogerson. SO amazing! I may seriously have to add that book to my personal library. I’ve put in a hold request on her first book, An Enchantment of Ravens. I hope it’s at least as half as good as Sorcery of Thorns. ::smiles::

And I’ve decided that when I get my Leucistic Texas rat snake, I will be getting a male and I will be naming him Silas after one of the characters in Sorcery of Thorns. ::smiles:: Not sure WHEN I’ll get said rat snake, but one of these days, I will. ::chuckles:: Along with a Woma python. Those are my two dream snakes (non-venomous). Venomous dream snakes are a gaboon viper, an African bush viper, and a Cape coral cobra. ::chuckles::

Sorcery of Thorns

written:  July 30

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I picked up this book at the Library when I finished up all my work for the after school program’s Orientation Week. It was recommended to me by my Canadian Twin, Brandy and she described it as being about “library wardens and sentient grimoires”. You know that peaked my interest. I picked up the book at 2:30 and read until my husband got home around 8:30 pm. I’m 410 pages into the 453-page book and I LOVE it. I seriously may have to pick up a copy to add to my own personal collection. It’s been ages since I’ve devoured a book like this…almost in one sitting.

I’m not going to work tomorrow. I’m giving myself that day off because I fucking need it. I’ve finished up everything for the binders AND the class on documentation that I teach. I technically could go back to the Tech Job early tomorrow…but yeah. I’m not. I’m sleeping in. I’m relaxing. And I’m going to start looking for library jobs. I dunno. My head boss, Kelly, was kind of snotty to me today, saying that “Oh, I thought you were going to be coming back? Did you even get your Master’s degree?”. And it was the tone that went with it, that just rubbed me the wrong way. It’s almost like she was disappointed that I was returning. It was just…snotty. It’s the only way I can really describe it.

So that’s lit a fire under my ass. Because, I was giving them a heads up that there was a possibility that I might not return this school year, based on if I got a library job. Because, I was trying to be a GOOD employee and I didn’t want to be the shitty one to call them two days before Orientation and say “I’m out!” without them ever knowing it was a possibility. Which, we have had 2 campus leaders and about 5 aides that I’m aware of that have quit this WEEK. Orientation is next week. So yeah, I was trying to be the “better person” here and I just got a whole lot of snotty attitude. So fuck that noise. I won’t be doing that any more.

So tomorrow’s plan is to apply for library jobs. Because I would love nothing more than to quit the after school job as soon as possible. I’m over the snark. I’m over the pettiness. I’m over the playing favorites. I’m over the fly-by-the-seat-of-our-pants type of leadership. I’m over it all.

Zen Doodle Thingie

written:  July 29

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Yeah, this Zen doodle thingie has certainly hit its “ugly” stage. I’m trying my hardest not to hate it or give up on it yet. I’m going to finish it out and then decide if I like it or not. ::laughs:: The yellow washi tape is there just to create a border. It will be removed once I finish filling it all in.

First day working on the campus leader binders. I hate that I was given little to no guidance on what the Zone Leaders want to see in these binders. Or what they think would be important. Nope. Just me. Doing everything on my own. As per usual. It doesn’t surprise me. This is their standard MO. It just sucks. I mean, if I’m doing THEIR work, I should get THEIR pay for it. But no. I’m getting even LESS than my standard pay, because it’s “summer help”. I seriously can’t wait to leave this damn job.

Dedication

written:  July 28

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The Mirror card from the Wild Wood Tarot that I drew this evening at Class. It’s a card of inner journey and the dark night of the soul. I also drew the 8 of Swords from the Wheel of the Year Tarot. Another not nice card. It’s about a lack of energy, imprisonment, and a lack of self-confidence. Yeah this next week should be a whole barrel full of fun. ::sighs and shakes her head::

The ritual went very well. I invoked the four directions and feel I did a really good job. Nicki and I both dedicated, and got our white cord. We are expected to wear these cords to all rituals from here on out as a symbol that we have taken this step. And since we both discussed the goddess in our dedications (to our Path), we don’t have to do that part. We also got a paper outlining the requirements for 1st Degree Initiation, even though that is a long ways off yet.

Tarot & Tea

written:  July 27

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A fun photo of my Chai latte and my current journal at The Perc for a Tarot and Tea with my Hazel Nut!

It’s been ages since we last did a Tarot and Tea. I miss my Hazel Nut. But there’s a possibility in the next year, that she may be moving to Oklahoma. That will seriously suck. I will seriously miss her. I mean, she’s my Hazel Nut!

I got to show off my Last Unicorn Tarot deck to her, but I’m still not quite ready to actually shuffle the deck and use it. It’s just too purdy. I also brought along my Spirit Animal Oracle deck, and damn it was spot on as well.

Telling me to own my own power. To seize the day. To basically stop being a little bitch and start applying for library jobs. And of course, during the reading, I had the distinct feeling I needed to pull the next card in the deck and pulled Spider – the symbol of the Coven. ::chuckles::

Rose

written:  July 26

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A rose I colored in the No.Art app – it’s a pixel coloring app that I am SUPER addicted to. ::laughs::

Last Friday off this summer. Next week I have to resume the standard 5-day work week. That sucks. I really enjoy the 3 day weekends.

Since I didn’t walk Josey-pup yesterday, we went for TWO walks today. ::smiles::

Other than that, not a whole lot to report on. Nice quiet day.